Because that’s what isolation really is - darkness. It’s keeping your struggle, your pain, your desires hidden so that you feel all alone. That’s why I wanted to share this post today – even from the midst of the struggle - because you are not alone. No matter how hurt you may be feeling or how much you would rather just hide or deal with it yourself. You are not alone. We weren’t meant to face trials in this life alone.
Getting Real With God
During the first year of trying to conceive, I was able to remain optimistic month after month while Jordan felt the disappointment intensely. I remember her crying at night, “What’s wrong with me?” , “Why can’t I get pregnant?” , “What’s wrong with my body?” I remember praying specifically, “God, whatever the issue is, please let it be me, not Jordan.” I didn’t want her to put the blame on herself. I didn’t want her to feel the pain of being the “cause” of infertility.
Proclaiming God's Goodness: The Crossroads
At the intersection of belief and experience, will you trust God’s goodness, or rely on the certainty of your pain?
Proclaiming God's Goodness: Rebekah's Story
We had it all planned out. We would get pregnant in September, and have our baby in June, so my teacher-husband could have three months off with our newborn. It was a great plan. It just wasn’t God’s plan.
Proclaiming God's Goodness: Sara's Story
The loss of conceiving biological children is not a loss that many understand, but it is a loss. I felt stuck in my grief.
A Personal Journey Through Loss
The season of waiting, of loss, of grief, is such a difficult one. It is hard. We are never promised an easy life.