As I observed this vacant scene on the shores of Lake Erie, I marveled at the wonder of God’s creation and how, every year, He allows nearly every sign of life to be obscured by ice, freezing temperatures and snow.
When we first started trying for a baby two and a half years ago, the early months held tendrils of hope. My mind swam with thoughts of our future family, not thinking for a moment of the difficulty we might face along the way.
It was 6AM, and my eyes were heavy as I tried to make sense of the Scripture passage laid out in front of me.
Infertility is a physical problem, but it has ramifications that go far beyond the physical. God gave us not just a body, but a mind, heart, and soul (Matthew 22:37).
As I observed this vacant scene on the shores of Lake Erie, I marveled at the wonder of God’s creation and how, every year, He allows nearly every sign of life to be obscured by ice, freezing temperatures and snow.
It was 6AM, and my eyes were heavy as I tried to make sense of the Scripture passage laid out in front of me.
Do you believe God is good? Before infertility I would have told you, “Yes, of course! That’s what the Bible says.” But as my struggle with infertility continues, this one aspect of God is brought into question. Is He good?
It should have been a day filled with great joy and celebration but, instead, my heart was full of deep grief and sadness.
If, like me, you’ve been on an infertility journey for any length of time you know the struggle is more than real when it comes to sex and intimacy.
When she gets pregnant, and I am still trying. When she has the baby shower, and I have nothing to celebrate. When she delivers a beautiful child, and I experience a loss. This questions creeps up on me no matter how much I guard my heart. Why her and not me?
