As I observed this vacant scene on the shores of Lake Erie, I marveled at the wonder of God’s creation and how, every year, He allows nearly every sign of life to be obscured by ice, freezing temperatures and snow.
When we first started trying for a baby two and a half years ago, the early months held tendrils of hope. My mind swam with thoughts of our future family, not thinking for a moment of the difficulty we might face along the way.
It was 6AM, and my eyes were heavy as I tried to make sense of the Scripture passage laid out in front of me.
Infertility is a physical problem, but it has ramifications that go far beyond the physical. God gave us not just a body, but a mind, heart, and soul (Matthew 22:37).
Infertile: a hard-to-hear label that can quickly change lives; that word changed ours. Nearly three years ago I was diagnosed as “infertile” because of my “non-traditional case of PCOS” and our world and dream of having a family suddenly changed.
Because that’s what isolation really is - darkness. It’s keeping your struggle, your pain, your desires hidden so that you feel all alone. That’s why I wanted to share this post today – even from the midst of the struggle - because you are not alone. No matter how hurt you may be feeling or how much you would rather just hide or deal with it yourself. You are not alone. We weren’t meant to face trials in this life alone.
When she gets pregnant, and I am still trying. When she has the baby shower, and I have nothing to celebrate. When she delivers a beautiful child, and I experience a loss. This questions creeps up on me no matter how much I guard my heart. Why her and not me?
(PCOS) is defined as a complex endocrine system disorder with no clear cause. PCOS is the most common endocrine system disorder among women of reproductive age.
When I first met my husband, Michael, I had just been diagnosed with Polycystic Ovary Syndrome and endometriosis.
Meet Waiting in Hope Leader: Ellen Palmer, Perry, Georgia Local Leader as she shares her story of infertility, health issues, an unthinkable diagnoses, and adoption.
