As I observed this vacant scene on the shores of Lake Erie, I marveled at the wonder of God’s creation and how, every year, He allows nearly every sign of life to be obscured by ice, freezing temperatures and snow.
When we first started trying for a baby two and a half years ago, the early months held tendrils of hope. My mind swam with thoughts of our future family, not thinking for a moment of the difficulty we might face along the way.
It was 6AM, and my eyes were heavy as I tried to make sense of the Scripture passage laid out in front of me.
Infertility is a physical problem, but it has ramifications that go far beyond the physical. God gave us not just a body, but a mind, heart, and soul (Matthew 22:37).
Advent is about waiting. But really, just like our season of waiting, it’s also about the end, the prize, the Great Hope. Advent is about an arrival, the coming. What’s so incredibly hard about our waiting is that we have no such promise.
Waiting for a job, a husband, or a baby can often be painful and lonely. In When God Says Wait, Elizabeth Laing Thompson tackles all the emotions that come when we are in a waiting season.
I know that everything inside you is aching for a miracle. I’ve felt the disappointment, shame, and seeming abandonment by God. I remember how hard it is to look past your tears. Dear sister, I’ve been there, and I can tell you this with certainty: Your infertility isn’t about you, just as mine wasn’t about me.
New team member shares her own journey… As I was waiting, though I didn’t doubt God’s existence, I questioned His goodness, planting this intense desire in my heart while not enabling me to fulfill it. Despite my distrust, He led me through grief and showed me far more goodness He had in store for this season. By His divine orchestration, He brought new friends into my life to shoulder the burden of infertility and to use my pain for His glory.
No matter what we investigated, what types of doctors we went to, what kinds of procedures, surgeries, medications and hormones, no amount of yoga or acupuncture, vacations or relaxation we tried… nothing was working. We just plain and simple could not conceive.
Meet Waiting in Hope Leader: Terri Eastepp, Nacogdoches, Texas Local Leader as she shares her story of infertility, health issues, and waiting.
